The literate fool_Wycliffe Osabwa Ayieko
The literate fool. That is my name. I look at my self. I look around
- There is nothing pleasant at all. All is balderdash. I look at my
image in the dressing mirror. Is this me? Is the mirror faithful? I
curse. I regret for having looked at it in the first place. I have been
trailing on streets, gazing at people and feeling good about my self. I
knew that I look like a somebody. No. I had been cheating myself. I
had felt important when people threw glances at me. All eyes on me.
Now I know why. Shame on them. I stretch my leg rudely and I kick
the mirror, distorting my image even more. My plastic shoe is now
gone. Cracks cracks cracks all over.
I examine my life briefly. Anyway, I am better off. Some people
cannot even talk English, the Queen’s language. The good news is
that I do not belong this group. I feel good once more. The goodness
again starts to wane when I think of my intelligence neighbour who
owns a Volkswagen car. I wonder how the brute acquired it. He is an
expatriate from South Africa and teaches music students on how to
play the mandolin. Some spurious means of earning money, I
meticulously observe. I feel that he does not deserve the job. Some
educated fellow would do. In fact, the nigger needs a translator when
giving out instructions. Double expenses see? I hate him. However
riche he may be, I can only spurn any offer from him.
I sit on the ground and examine my recent past once more. I
remember of the big English I had spoken to the useless security
guard who had aborted my quest to meet a certain boss. I had gone to
find a job. I had hurled all sorts of names to the guard, thanks to my
English teacher who taught me the art of letters. I had called him an
idiot. A boon. An imbecile. A simpleton. Fool. Goon. Nincompoop.
Dolt. Good God! Garbage in, garbage out; I had thought. The fruits of
being literate. The same English teacher had even once surprised me
when she told me that even murderers are ranked. That those killing
common men like me (thought literate) are killing murderers. Just
that. Those killing great and famous political religious icons are
called assassins. Those who graduate from the college of murdering
king are called regicides. Oops! To me, a murderer is just a murderer.
However foolish I may be, I am fully literate. Very hopeful indeed.
I turn my eyes on to an article struck on my wall. It talks about
prosperous red children. Some live in the north, while others in the
west. Few live in the east. The article says that these little brutes start
earning at the age of sixteen. What of Africans? Where was I at
sixteen? What was I? In fact I am now a decade older but still
dependent. I feel bad about myself.
I think over the above. I first deny the oriental children credit. If
anything, the sun shines in their land first before coming to Africa.
They therefore wake up earlier. What of those in the occident? Don’t
they receive the sun after us? Yes and no. Yes because they do. No
because they confuse us. They unite with the ones in the north to give
us sanctions and plunder us. I imagine of the precious time I spent in
school in the name of learning their language, while they wee busy
learning new and technical things. In fact they trade in their
vernacular. At sixteen I start from the square one as they take an
employment. Seen? In fact I owe my poor performance in
examinations to the fact that all instructions are worded in the foreign
language. All in the name of struggling to be literate, to be free. At the
end of the day, I am a free but hungry literate fool.
I try hard to forget the above. Suddenly, I remember of another fable.
A fairy tale of the terrible twos. They had once ganged up, the
northerners and the westerners and colonized our austral ancestors.
They had come with a bible in their right hand and money in the left.
Every word in the Bible had been written in their favour. They had
cheated us that money was good. That it was a present for us. In fact
their holy book had some lines, which read, “Give to Johnny what
belong to Johnny”. Funny enough, their money carried Johnny’s
portrait. In short the money belonged to Johnny. Want to know how
they got back to him? Forced labour. I now feel better about them.
They had also called our home as “the dark continent”. I cannot resist
the attempt of wondering what they came to look for in the dark
continent. Word had that they had come to preach truth and justice.
Pity is that they were financially despotic. Some even decapitated our
brothers when they letter tried to free themselves. Gosh! How I wish
they stumbled in the darkness and broke their dirty limbs!
I ponder over the above and wonder why my brothers go to get
literate in the west. West is not best, after all. East is neither beast.
(My English teacher would say “beastly”). At least the easterners allow
the sun to visit us. In fact some wise words came from there. Word went
that a certain woman from the east talked much sense. She was known
as Indira Gandhi. Heard of her? Unfortunately, the word were not hers.
She did what most of us when we want to permanently damage our
heads or get a PHD. We simply paraphrase other people’s works and
christen them ours. What somebody termed as transference of bones
from one grave to the other. Back to Gandhi’s borrowed wisdom. As I
have told you, the words were not hers. She had picked them from her
grandfather’s moth. He had talked about two kinds of people in the
world: those who love to work and those who wait to receive the credit.
He had advised that we better prefer the first group to the second, for
there is less competition in the first place. Logically true, practically
absurd. Who wants to work altogether? I better take the credit. Sinecure
beneficiaries can attest to this. The surest way of dying young or poor is
to do the hardest job. That is why I want to do the hardest job. Those
who work more are less paid. That is why I went to school in order to
get a big job and do little and earn big money. Little did I know that I
would still wallow in poverty. I am literate but hungry. I made a wrong
choice. Aliterate fool. I guess that the illiterate fool is less foolish. Who
said that education is a panacea to a people’s problems?
While still thinking over the education question, I quickly remember
something else. As I have said before, I have read all that is readable
in this universe. Don’t joke with a PHD. It is a Permanent Head
Dress, an intellectual property that cannot be stolen by anyone. In my
reading, I came across a comment on education. Some sycophant
once said that if anyone sees education as expensive, he should try
ignorance. I congratulate myself for not trying ignorance, but feel
sorry again for being an educated fool. My spirits sink low.
I arrive at a decision. I decided that I should tear all my academic
documents. They are useless to me. I think of going back to the
useless expatriate and ask for a favour. No. I decline. I hate experts. If
you love their kind, you are definitely the kind that I hate most. They
just came and pick our jobs in our full view. I believe that I can pluck
the mandolin madly. And earn the bloody coins. Who is ready to offer
me the chance? When you ask for a job, just as Kwame Nkruma
walked from jailhouse straight to statehouse.
I drastically change my reasoning. I decide not to be employed
anymore. For what will it serve me to be employed, deployed and
finally destroyed? You are proposed by one, only to be disposed by
the other. You are hired by one only to be fired by the other. In short,
you are appointed by one only to be disappointed by the other. What a
life this is such air around me. I here and now decide never to seek
I must justify the above retelling what I went though in my quest for a
job. I had been turned down when I requested for a job from a certain
office. Reason? I was not spick and span. Where could I get nice
clothing yet I was jobless? Don’t we have poor guys who have
decided to wear rags in the name of being Rastafarians? I had then
decided to borrow some clothes for my next interview. This time
round, I went to industrial area. The ordeal in offices had scared me. I
had decided out of humiliation and frustrations, to take on any kind of
job. (Including the MD’s post?) I had decided to be a roustabout. I
had even applied for an overseas job as a stevedore. That was then.
Now at the factory in industrial area, I had been assigned to load a
forty fat truck. Wasn’t I well groomed in borrowed clothes? I declined
the job. I had cursed the manager who was more of a capitalist. Why
was our president acting Benito Mussolini who loved capitalists as
long as they served the Italian State? I had even regretted for having
voted for the president who happen to be my area member of
parliament. He had later on gone to present himself in the parliament,
and not represent us as had promised during election campaigns.
I had left the factory and went to stroll, only to be arrested by hungry
bastards in the name of the police. Accusations? Loitering with intent.
Those who know some law are aware that the above offence needs no
exhibit, or rather has none. These brutes escaped with my fifty
shillings note which they had grabbed as I removed my national
identity card from my wallet, so as to identify myself. I saw them as a
blessing in disguise. They later branded me a terrorist. I think they
qualified more as terrorists as they were brandishing guns, while I
Who is a terrorist, anyway/ the term is none existent in our African
vocabulary. It belongs to the language of the terrible twos. I
personally opine that they are the terrorists. How did they con the
term? See any sense here/ when I say this, some people think that too
much. That I tread beyond my limits. Should I be taciturn?
I answer the above question by one sentence: reticence stinks; one
wiseacre once said that fools shout to show authority. Wrong. I am a
fool but I hardly shout. However much I may talk, I do it softly. Some
lines from the terrible twos holy book has stunning and questionable
revelations. That a silent fool is considered wise. Have you now seen
the reason as to why I should talk? This silent fool, unlike me, is ever
complacent. He will remain cool and composed even when some
nigger is treading on his rights. I do not work this way. Tread on my
rights and I will ask you two or three questions.
I have been sitting here for long. As I stand to go and get a snooze, I
make up a final decision. I decided never to think again. My thoughts
and meditations are all fruitless. I batter sleep and dream paradise, to
make today tolerable and tomorrow worth waiting for. I will not look
for a job. I do not have dependants. I am single and free to mingle in
the jungle. I must also stop talking for it has done me no good. I
should now act. I know of one thing: when you are up, you can only
come down. I will therefore sleep calmly like a volcano waiting to
erupt. I will wait, and wait and wait silently as a recluse, waiting for
those who are up to come down. I have pushed down their ladder. I
will not mind flogging a dead horse. That is me. The literate fool. I